Gyms, again

I had a nice day of skiing today, and I thought I'd end it with going to the gym and meeting for the first time with my personal trainer. I'm not paying for one, I'm just getting the complimentary sessions for signing up. I know I'm not in the best shape, especially my upper body, but I thought he'd at least commend me for losing 30 pounds. Instead, I left feeling fat and helpless. The guy was nice, it wasn't really his fault. After I found out my body fat percentage and stuff, I felt like losing the 30 pounds did nothing. He kept telling me that I needed to do weights and stuff for my upper body, which I know and which is one of the main reasons why I joined. But he basically made it sound like no matter how much I try myself or have other people help me, I'm never going to get better unless I have a personal trainer. I think that's a bunch of crap. A coworker of mine has been working out for a long time and is pretty buff, and he said he'd help me. The trainer said I can't follow his routine or have him help me since he isn't certified, but it'll still help and it costs a lot less. So now I think I'm going to go to bed and wallow in self pity. The only good part that came out of it was that I apparently have pretty buff legs, even though I think they're still fat. Oh, well. The trainer must be right.